Berlin - Tuesday, July 27, 1999

This will be the first in a series of messages by Gayle Bluebird, U.S.A. that will catalog the tour that is being made in Germany

"Freedom From Fear"

We are a group of five people, Rene from Germany, Joanna from Poland , Hagai from Israel, Elin from Norway, and myself, Bluebird, USA.

The purpose of the tour is to visit areas where exterminations took
place in hospitals located in different parts of Germany. The tour will
culminate in Hamburg on August 5-8 where the World Psychiatric
Association is meeting. A four day counter convention and protest will
be held near the site of the main conference and includes films and
speakers who will speak about Euthansia killing of over 200,000
undesirables including "mental patients" from 1939-1947. The group who
conducts the counter convention objects to the conference being held in
Germany, as Psychiatrists have not been held accountable for these
crimes or even acknowledge that they occurred.

Following my arrival on July 23rd, we have been visiting sites in Berlin that give background and historical information regarding the
orchestration and intentional killing of people. We first went to a location in Berlin Tiergartenstrasse, which is now a street location
where the Symphony Hall was built in 1963.

This building as well as others have been established to contrast the terrible crimes of the holocaust, consequently there is an emphasis on beauty and culture.
Much of this work is still in progress, as everywhere you look there are huge cranes, and mounds of building materials.

There is a placque in front of the Symphony Hall which could easily be overlooked by passing tourists. Here is the only memorial that memorializes the known 200,000 who died of starvation, showers, and poisoned injections.

Rene reads the words that are on the memorial. We take pictures and are silent for a moment. The bright side of this picture is the plan that is in the making for the construction of a museum for art works that were created in institutions and later confiscated and currently held in the basement of Heidelberg University. The collection is known as the "Prinzhorn Collection."

This concept has support from a number of known figures who agree that
the art belongs to the Berlin ex-patient organization, The Bundesverband
Pszchiatrie-Erfahrener(the organization to which Rene belongs). The
blueprint for this project is quite exciting.

Some of our tour is pleasure. We went through the Symphony Hall and
were impressed by it's ability to seat 2,300 with every seat looking
directly down at the orchestra from multi-level seating in the round.

We went to several recognized museums, but none impressed me more than
the one of Kaethe Kollwitz, whose works were of working mothers and

August 27 -- Free University

Today this is a large state university that is free to apprx. 15,000 students. The placque commemorates that this was the place for study on Race Hygiene. The infamous Dr. Mengele was educated and worked here.

His teacher, who indocrinated him, Prof. von Verschuer, went on to be a highly regarded figure in post-war Germany.

Rene took us to two different psychiatric hospitals. One of them comes
with an interesting story. Charite Hospital has a small building among
all of its impressive buildings for psychiatric patients. I was first
struck by the fact that we walked through many long hallways with not a
soul in sight. Rene points out a front room (now locked) which was the
site of a demonstration by his organization. They went into the room
and wrote the name of Gert Postel, who was a successful imposter doctor
psychiatrist who managed his facade for over 8 years on and off. Rene
said that he was quite impressive but discharged many of the patients
who incidentally were not re-admitted later. This is a sketchy story
that can probably stand some fill-in, but Gert's name was replacing that
of Carl Bonhoeffer, a well known figure to psychistry in Germany, and
for whom a statue was placed in his honor outside of this hospital. The
statue was be-headed and his placque on the wall removed.

At the time we are there, there is a certain eeriness present. The
stories, the quiet. No one telling us to leave. No one asking for our
reason for being there. And where were the patients. We finally see a
door that had open windows, with patients sitting in the hallway.

Us at the entrance of the Federal Archive Building in Berlin

Today we went to the Federal Archive Building where we were allowed to look at and even take pictures of records of persons who were killed in T4.

The ASSt director met with us and finally agreed with us that the information in these records is public information.
I was quite surprised. We were shown at least five records with full explanations of what was on them, people's ages, circumstances, diagnoses, etc.

The reasons for admission were not unfamiliar, but no less disturbing. Each of their names had been submitted to the T4 building where their applications were reviewed for approval and marked with an X for approval. Their transportation was arranged. They were often discharged to another hospital before reaching their final arrival.

I will write more about this later. Getting late. We're off to Brandenburg tomorrow. See attachment of one of the documents we looked at today.

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Here is a poem by Elin:

My Hospital Record

is the worst writing I ever saw
It should have been some of my biography
telling something about my life

The psychopathic spirits are forcing
a deadly injection of untruth
into my unwilling soul

I am not willing to admit
that my lack of cooperation
makes their methods fail

The record becomes my wrongdoing
a collection of untruths
I find it hard to swallow

not letting the anger
getting the better part of me
and destroy that too

It ruins me on the inside
threatening my health
if I can't let it out in a bad manner

Because I cry for help
but don't know the words
by which I can make myself understood

My reactions become diagnosed
to make the basis for
what treatment I shall receive
That I see when I read my record
written by the professionals
who call themselves authorities:

The Doctors of Psychiatry

Let's burn their journals
and demand that they begin again
to see people from a different viewpoint

which must be built on understanding
which until now to a large degree
has been lacking

therefore they try to compensate
or hide their lack of care
and fear of empathy

by camouflaging
and misleading the whole system
they've been set in charge of

How can in any way also in words
anyone get the help he or she needs
within this system?

Elin Sverdrup-Thygeson
Oslo, Norway.

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